There was a video I watched where Alex O’Connor was discussing a trolly problem at first. Then he modified the already modified problem such that he was posing the question: kill and forget, or save and remember. The idea is that you are given a chance to kill and forget, or you have to jump on the grenade so to speak and save them but remember killing them. Save them, or save yourself. Kill them, or kill your Self.
Embedded signs are in our languages, the events of our lives, our memories of those events, conversations of passers-by, conversations with friends. Sometimes the sign tells you a joke, sometimes it shows you the mysteries of the universe.
If God posed a question to you. Through signs you’ve come to believe in. If he asked you, will you suffer eternal damnation in order to save your brothers from the same fate. Would you?
Now, what if I said. An answer to that question was a prerequisite to understanding non-duality. That it was required to fully experiencing the infinite signage on the road you’re walking. Would you scoff, and say.. you’re delusional. Or.. THE DEVIL HAS TAKEN HOLD OF THIS SOUL, JESUS RELEASE HIM!
For a long time, I was questioning whether I am delusional. Given how symbolically aligned my name is to a second coming of Christ – coming from a Christian perspective with an agnostic grounding. Given the significance of my mother’s name as well.. and how my energy is far more of a feminine energy publicly and my masculine energy I’ve kept to myself largely. When you’re a degenerate like me, and the universe is pushing you to be a messiah.. or have a messiah complex.. and you think of the world in terms of psychology like this..
Anyways. So, I’m not the messiah. You’re the messiah. The life of brian is what Jesus preached, you just have to open your eyes to see that Neo. I realize now I’m not delusional, because of my waking life and how utterly boring it is. Yet I know I’m important because I understand how vital my ideas are to evolving the crumbling institutions of the world. I’ve got democracy problems solved in theory, but I’m not gonna lift a finger to create the solution. I’m quite literally too retarded to do it by the due date.. besides I really enjoy hanging out in 3d it makes a lot of sense in of itself. We surely mustn’t let it overwhelm us, but within it we possess so much ego to fuel our imaginations of what a better world would look like. We can learn such valuable lessons there in that density.
If this non-duality, spirituality wave.. which is surging in all densities and manifesting differently in each.. if that crashes and I decide that humans really are simply pattern searchers. That some traumatic event in my mundane life merely triggered a flight or fight response which rocked the core of who I am. That me seeing patterns, slowly, and ever more intricately.. reaching a state of “enlightenment” by which the infinite signs become apparent and pervasive so long as I remain attuned. That every single last bit of all of it, is just pattern recognition. Which as a software engineer I could probably muse about LLM’s and human brains as biological LLMs++ for quite some time. Instead I’ll just point out, even if all that were true. The manipulation of this mechanism can lead to such overwhelming joy and happiness, true heaven, that arguing against it becomes either a moot point or about theology – ontology – epistemology.
So, as I was saying.. if all that turns out to be true. I’ll get around to it by 2077 and probably nobody will care by then.. and I’ll be like 88.. and nobody will care. I’ll probably die alone too. Or maybe I’d split and go reverting back to my original experience of consciousness [empathy: 0%] and decide to do a.. well I won’t speak any.. but you get the exact vibe. My imagination has within it the capacity for great darkness. Johnny Silverhand resonates pretty strong with the presence of my Ego. Female Nomad V meanwhile being my internal world set up to reflect the edges of the matrix I crafted to understand the 3d.
Joshua whispered into the ether.
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