I dunno bout you human shits.. but I for one don’t think I am much of anything at all. I haven’t achieved any great feats. I am nearly a 40 year old virgin, according to the definitions of others – not that I couldn’t change that today if I wanted to put in the effort. All the while, I’ve struggled with desire to have, to be. The awareness that I am in fact nothing, in spite of all that I could be. The struggles with depression, loneliness, addiction. The mental revelations which led me to stillness, that eventually revealed God to me but not before teaching me to be self reliant, self accepting, self loving, and driven to make positive changes in my life.
I’m so well educated it’s legitimately scary that I’m unable to find employment. I’m so attractive that it is equally scary I can’t get a girlfriend/wife/partner. None of that matters if you’re retarded, too slow for the expectations of others. Too damaged to be loved. Too programmed to see physical beauty in the external world. Too internally focused on internal beauty. Too cognizant of the unlikely event any one person might ever meet that unicorn who is also just too much of a freak for her/their own good within society. Too inside.
You see the world needs people outside themself, focused on external results. The world doesn’t change if that choice isn’t made.
To varying levels of difference, we are all nothing – that’s just how the psyche operates. We can push it out, and believe we are something. Here’s the trick though, you’ve got to realize that thinking we are something is a delusion of grandeur. Now here is where society will come in and program you to think that you just need to control your ego a bit and pick reasonable demands.. cause thinking you’re nothing.. that’s also delusion.
I have these grand dreams of what I could build for the future. A dream of what I would do with a trillion dollars. I’d want to build maglev trains between all the continents, and build solar/wind/tide farms with any residual.. then burn the rest I guess I dunno. The mag lev trains covering that distance may in fact deplete the funds, as immense as a trillion dollars is.. engineering on small scales tends to quickly eat up tens of millions. I digress.. not the point. Can’t follow the fractals too far.. Yes such grand dreams such as fully anonymous voting networks on the blockchain. Using pseudonyms and social [real world] trust between nodes (people) to ensure we can take part in civil discourse, vote on important decisions within their varying scales of community.
You have a lot of time to think without too many significant others to distract you. Also makes seeing signs, and learning the truths much easier. The first 10,000 hours is gonna be rough, and boring, and you’ll run to your distractions.. so you’ll probably take 20 years to achieve that. Just remember, you may have to observe the thoughts.. but you don’t have to explore them. Or if you’re not much of an explorer, you don’t need to practice thinking either. The goal is to see, understand, and repeat.
We all encapsulate an empty space of nothing, and from within that womb we create. That’s all. It’s as simple as that. These realizations, learning to cope with too much of either.. they teach us all we need to know about our self. Who we are. Cause once we know that.. woo boy.. things are really gonna accelerate then. We wouldn’t even have a scale by which we could truly compare. The impact.. the level of productivity, if that was our goal, would be far beyond even the industrial revolution.
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